Day 29- spirituality

I'm currently reading a book by Alex Grey called 'The Mission of Art'. Basically, it analyzes the higher spiritual pathways one can obtain through art. It's fascinating. Alex grey was a huge inspiration to me even before reading this but now it's tenfold. But it aligns with how I feel about spirituality- it's internal. I've always thought that. He says that people who go to a place of worship, and have people talk 'religion' at them, aren't truly uniting with anything spiritual. You have to find it within. He couldn't be more right. Everything we consider good or evil is a manifestation of ourselves. The things we find beautiful or grotesque are all ways we channel either light or darkness internally. It is our lifelong journey to unite with the divine. And by divine I don't mean Jesus or god. If that is how you visualize your purpose than so be it. However, I would like to think that how I view the transcendent force is much more profound than that. It's everything. I wonder how we've come to humanize everything in our lives? Is it easier to swallow that way? Why do we limit our vision to the doctrines that have been shoved down our throats for centuries? What if it's all wrong? To me, spirituality is a deeply personal way to give meaning to you life. People spend their entire lifetime looking for the 'reason' they are alive. But, really, you have to give it your own purpose. You can't look for it anywhere else but inside. However you set out to find this, it up to you. Everything we are surrounded by is connected and filled with a message if you take the time to let it teach you. Otherwise, you are just wasting your life looking for something deeply embedded with the very core of your being. Everyday, every moment is a gift. Immerse yourself in the now.

Day 25- hallucinogens

Ok. I already know how this one may sound so hear me out. I'm not a 'drug person'. Maybe I was at one point. Truth be told, I barely even drink anymore. I've experimented with almost every drug known to man sans heroine, crack and meth [no desire to try any of those either]. I regret none of that. Some of my most memorable and happiest memories involve drugs. To me that's what they are about- memorable experiences. You see, I'm a firm believer in moderation, because of that I'll never be an addict and I don't have an addictive personality- which I think it somewhat of a bullshit idea anyway. I enjoy my sobriety. 

That being said- Lysergic Acid Diethylamide, and fellow hallucinogens, are in their own universe. It's not about 'getting totally ripped' although it does do that in a most unparalleled way. For me, it's about the clarity and transcendence you achieve. I've never felt more humble than when I've tripped on acid. I can honestly say I didn't truly know what that meant prior to dropping. It crushes your ego. From inception, it was used by mental health practitioners for therapy. After that it became a 'mind control' tool used by the CIA in the 1950s. I find that oddly humorous being that all it does is open your mind. 

If you want to work out the girth of your problems or just achieve a new level of  personal enlightenment, I would strongly advise taking hallucinogens, be it LSD, Diemethyltriptine or psilocybin [I've done all 3]. However, it is not for the timid or weak minded. I remember when I was younger, I heard Paul McCartney talk about how acid 'forever changes you'.  It's seems cliche but it's painfully true. It opens your eyes, your third eye. You may not be willing and welcoming to the world it wants to show you or the 'you' it wants to show you. For me, it's the closest thing to spirituality I can get. The intense and deep enlightenment it provides takes me to an alternate plane and a higher level of consciousness, full of gratitude and a harmonious melody of life.