If I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay...

I feel all the wrong things at all the wrong times yet somehow they couldn't be more right. My emotions are high lately. This mercury retrograde is sure going to be something. All I can do is open my heart and let whatever will be come to me. I feel more vulnerable than ever and in a past life that would be frightening but this time it's enlightening. Big things are coming my way. I can feel them. I'm more in tune with the melody of the universe and I am challenging myself to really be entangled within and not withhold anything. Expect catastrophe in the most spellbinding way. Metamorphosis. Regeneration. Reckoning. It's been far too long...

Up in the air

Sometimes I become overwhelmed with emotions at inappropriate times. Random things trigger memories and they pull those familiar feeling out of me. I'm sure you've felt that way at some point. The best way I can describe it is a black wave that creeps up behind and crashes over me like a hurricane. I used to believe that this was a curse, that I was a slave to my emotions. I felt that my baggage was a tumor that was slowing dragging me down, slowing me with every moment. I truly feel lately that this no longer is true. I now revel in my soul connection and my deep intuitive nature. It is my most benevolent, innate trait. How ironic the things we think handicap us can in turn define us purely. I have always felt like I feel too much, that things effect me much deeper than most. Many times, I have longed to rid myself of such deep emotional ties. I felt it pushed people away from me. But anymore, I am immensely grateful and I find it virtuous the way I feel. I always felt that many people do not  experience the things I do. That no one can grasp the world how I do. But now I realize, that is wrong and furthermore stupid. How could anyone know that? I'm not different. I'm not special. And even if I was, how could the magnitude of my emotions be measured? It can't. How can anyone feel anything anyone else does or even know what or how they feel? You can't. Everything you feel is yours alone. It is something sacred and it's interlaced in your biological makeup. They say that things you think and feel imprint your DNA which is passed on to your offspring. I can only hope that good things will be gifted to my spawn.